...to the date we leave to meet wilson. feeling anxious and excited and nervous all at once. i was thinking about how often i dream of his sweet face and i cannot wait to actually see him in person and commit every little feature to memory. i know it may sound crazy to think about how much you can love a child you haven't actually met yet, but i think that's just part of the beauty of our human existence. i still look at my children, all of them, and i can remember all my thoughts of what they would be like as babies/toddlers/kids either before they were born (if i gave birth to them myself), or as i waited to meet them (if all i had was a photo to stare at for hours and hours).
i look at them now and see the memories; their faces have changed, their bodies have filled out, and their ages are older, but i smile to myself. i smile because i was right that brother K would be easy, calm, and a warrior. i laugh because i was right that sister K would keep me on my toes and be everything i wasn't, and somehow we would still be close and enjoy each other, maybe for the very traits we lack in ourselves. i smile because i was right that brother C would be unique and strong, close and independent all at once. i catch my breath when i think of sister L, because though she came as a surprise, she is one of the most amazing and breathtaking joys that i ever could have expected. i smile because i was right that sister M is a treasure, one that others could not see, and she is strong and lovable, and loving despite all odds. i laugh again because i was oh so right that sister N is big and loud and fun and fiesty.
i was right about so much, and of course there are unexpected things i never would have guessed, but through it all, these children, their features, their quirks, their lovable selves are forever embedded in my heart and soul and memory. and so what do i think of wilson? well, i think he's a little bit quiet and has a great sense of humor. i think he's a rough and tumble little boy who is eager to learn and full of great ideas. i think he's someone special, someone i love, someone i want to hold close and make it known that he is full of promise and surprises.
as we prepare to bring our last child home, i feel blessed to have family and friends that lend a helping hand. whether you are helping with our children while we travel, joining our auction to raise some funds, donating to our fsp, wishing us well, or taking care of our hearts through our journey, we are thankful and so appreciative.
this is the last weekend of our auction. we have adorable kid clothes, awesome kid shoes, uganda treasures, and fun wall decals. if you are interested in bidding on some items and helping us raise a few travel funds, please go here and join our auction page: join our auction to bring wilson home
if you'd like to make a tax deductible donation to our fsp fund that will help us with travel funds, please go here: donate to help bring wilson home
seriously, it sounds cliche, but every dollar does help. we have some family members that love to get us gifts, and we are so happy to receive an fsp donation for a gift. we are grateful to everyone that has donated to us already, and so thankful for any help we receive, even if it's a $1 donation. we would love to tell our sweet boy how many people helped bring him home.
if you'd like to help give our children staying home while we travel some love, whether you take them out for a walk to the park, share some treats together, or help provide transportation to dance lessons, please contact me. we are always grateful for help in this area. our children at home will have a difficult time without us, and it would be a huge gift to have help with loving them and showing them kindness while we are away.
it takes a village to raise a child they say. we say it takes a village to raise a family. i know we couldn't do this alone, without the support of our friends and family and community, we wouldn't be able to be the parents, the family, the friends that we strive to be. thank you to everyone who has been so supportive and loving to us along the way.
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